For a year now, I have had a phoenix tattoo. I had waited a long time and considered back and forth where I would place this tattoo. I had originally decided on my left thigh; I had the money for it, but there was a misunderstanding. The tattoo artist understood that I wanted the phoenix placed on my upper arm and personally preferred this variant.
Since the death of my mother and thus a years-long caregiving period, I have felt pain and sometimes paralysis in the entire left side of my body; I hoped to burn away these energetic impurities once and for all with the symbol of the phoenix – because I had already tried everything to get back to my energy. By the way, my mother died from the consequences of 7 left-sided strokes…
A few days after the tattoo, I suddenly got a lumbago; maybe it was just a pinched nerve. I no longer go to the doctor, and my alternative practitioner emigrated a few years ago. I help myself with the 5 Biological Natural Laws and wanted to know if I could connect these with the phoenix symbol. It was also exactly the time when I had fallen for a fraudster. So, a psychopathic narcissist, whose charming talk had made me trusting (he was different from other sellers… as if, he was just more satanic). Everything was accompanied by weeks of pain and immobility. Nevertheless, I took the train to an important life retreat of my online training. Since a train simply did not run, I missed the last bus that would have taken me to the alpine lodge in the Allgäu. My phone battery was almost dead, and I just caught a glimpse of Google Maps and could send a message about where I was. With the reply “No one can pick you up now, you’ll manage” my phone died. I had to walk the rest on foot with severe pain – 2 km is manageable…
By now, I knew that I was in a process and decided on a breakthrough. When I arrived shivering at the seminar house, I had to cry and laugh at the same time. I experienced an inner emotional roller coaster on this path through many ups and downs of the landscape and through deep snow on a shortcut, and I talked with my phoenix the whole time. My left hip now hurt in a way that announced the first signs of a possible hip operation. But for me, there is always a plan B, C, and D. I certainly would not let myself be operated on. After the first day, where a lot of dancing took place and I had to breathe through the pain repeatedly, my left shoulder also made itself known vehemently, which had grown back crooked after a fracture in my childhood.
To me, it looked like a healing crisis, so I persevered… The issue behind it was simply my lack of self-love; therefore, I kept falling for the charm of good actors who exploited my creativity and loyalty, including my narcissistic mother. In the following months, I fell for promises of money and financial freedom again and had the same realizations. After a deep depression, I suddenly had to laugh at myself. Since then, I only do what I like and reject all success tools. However, I had to go through these abysses to now burn everything that still connected me to this artificial matrix. What remains is the love for everything that is and my soul light, which now noticeably radiates from me. My phoenix has saved me. Now, after a year, I am again quite fit, calm like before, and have developed a phoenix coaching that does not yet attract any clients. I now know all marketing strategies, but I have returned completely to myself and do what I feel like. Through my phoenix on my left upper arm, I now feel both halves of my body and brain simultaneously and connected again. And no one can twist my psyche anymore! I am rising from my own ashes and spreading my wings!
You can find my phoenix offer on my website: www.geburtindieneuewelt.de/heilbegleitung-und-coaching (this is not meant to be advertising)
