Namaste – I am happy that the Okitalk website is now expanding! Finally, I meet like-minded people! This has been a very turbo-slow year for me. Actually, I wanted to take a vacation after my mother’s death…

Then the car was constantly broken, the next car too, my son needed me after a stay in the psychiatric clinic. I booked a training to become a pleasure coach to get my psyche in order. Then I invested money three times in psychopathic liar associations that promised me financial freedom but wanted to coach me away from myself. Other things happened that repeatedly hurt me and made me angry, sad, and speechless… Now, just in time for the end of the year, I have realized that I had created these experiences for myself through my victim behavior! Since then, the right people have come to me, and the wrong ones stay away. I have been in a pleasure birth doula training since summer, the only training of its kind worldwide. Although I cannot afford it financially, I trust…

It was more important for me to stay in this community of like-minded individuals, and my soul has guided me. And so I have connected three of my many red threads: biological birth, the birth into the self (pleasure coaching), and the collective birth of humanity. And I will no longer allow myself to be manipulated. Much has happened this year, and after all my efforts to market my offer, to make myself visible, and to post daily fell flat, I realized that this is not my path. I lay depressed in bed, had no money, the landlord threatened with eviction, and then? Then I asked my body: “What do you desire?” And an inner drive pulled me towards what I have always loved to do: writing, YouTube videos, forest. And the fear of existence dissolved. Then various invitations and offers came, to which I said YES, which, although they do not bring me money at the moment, bring joy and thus energy. It is hard to let go of oneself, but then the soul can follow its plan more freely and thus faster. The awakening into the highest consciousness does not happen linearly but in waves, like everything natural.

I have sent my ego into retirement for now, and my soul is in the process of creating a birthing oasis with the women who carry the same vision within them. So far, we are five, from Germany, Switzerland, Italy, and South Africa. That is already something, isn’t it? In the birthing oases, the new humanity is born; it cannot be otherwise. As homework for my doula training, I watched five videos of cesarean births yesterday. We call it belly birth because the perspective and word choice can prevent trauma. I did feel nauseous watching these scenes, but the mothers were happy that their child was alive.

From this perspective, I hope I could also overcome my prejudices. There are indeed people who are not so conscious and do not know much (e.g., that the umbilical cord should pulsate because the blood in the placenta, including the immune substances and stem cells, belongs to the baby and not to the hospital, which makes a lot of money from it). Not knowing has always been a protection, but it is slowly changing on all levels, and that is good. Everything is changing because everything was tainted with lies and manipulation. But love and the search for it have remained with humanity throughout the entire Kaliyuga.

And so we are slowly returning to our soul consciousness and remembering. Fear was never our enemy but a companion. Pain served the realization. Fear and pain were an experience in duality, and natural transitional experiences such as birth, dying, marrying, emigrating, puberty, menopause, unemployment, near-death experiences, etc. have always been initiations to return to the soul light. Then we gratefully integrate fear and pain and awaken in life pleasure and pure love. And that is why so much is changing right now on Earth and in the world and within us. I am already looking forward to 2026; there will surely be much to do for us starseeds! I am Lilu, the fifth element, the phoenix rising from the ashes of patriarchy…